Fool me not.. [6] just a kiss

I decided to combine chapter 6 and 7 of this story. Maikli lang kasi yung 6 at 7. At parehas pang non-sexual.. ayun.. ang boring na ata masyado.. er.  haha.. la magagawa.




“Okay, project for this quarter.. music video guys.” excited na sinabi ng teacher ko.. “..hindi nakakaboring tong project na to, right? Okay then, group yourselves.. 5 groups.. 10 members each..BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH.”

Wala akong reaksyon.. Yung mga kaklase ko excited na.. Sa akin, wala lang.. Kanina pa ako wala sa mood makinig sa teacher..

Lumapit sa akin ang bestfriend ko, si Mae..

“..looks like you’re not in the mood today.. is something wrong?” she asked.. tumabi siya sa akin.. Tiningnan ko siya at umiling..

“No.. nothing’s wrong.. Masakit lang paa ko.”

Madami na ang lumapit sa pwesto naming dalawa.. Syempre, andito ata si Mae.. Sabi ko naman sa inyo, magaling siya..

She’s the kind of student who can lead a group;who can talk in front of many people and; who can make everything right just by talking and saying the right words to say;

That’s who she is..

Malayo sa akin.. I’m the opposite.. I can’t control my temper.. I’m loud.. I’m the girl who always messing things up..

“Oh, I see.” huminga siya ng malalim..Napansin niyang kumpleto na ang ten members..at naka form na kami ng circle.  ”..well then, lets start the meeting..”

Inisa-isa ko yung mga members.. 6 girls.. and 4 boys, including Ralph.. I watched him without being noticed. He’s smiling and laughing. Ang sarap niyang panoorin.. I shook my head and looked away..

I realized, there’s another thing that I can’t do but Mae can … and that is to make ANY guy fall for her..

Naubos ang oras sa pagdedecide kung anong kanta ang gagamitin ng grupo namin. Sabi ni sir, it should be a love song.. bago man or luma pwede, as long as it expresses love.. romantic love to be exact.. mas maganda din daw kung gagawa kami ng sariling cover or ibahin ang lyrics. Bahala na daw kaming pagandahin at gawing unique ang music video. hindi ako nakapagsuggest ng kanta dahil wala namana kong hilig sa music..

Damn.. why am i so useless right now? Napatingin na naman ako kay Ralph.. he is talking to his seatmate this time.. Nag-iisip din ng kantang pwedeng isuggest..

“lexi..” kinalabit ako ni Mae.. “You’ll be one of the leads, okay?”

I said yes although I don’t have any idea what she’s talking about..

“Okay then, guys.. next saturday ang start ng recording. Then the weekend after next week, we will have a 2-day shoot. Pag-usapan na lang natin next saturday. Pwede na umalis yung iba..” announced ni Mae. Uwian na kasi. pwede ng umalis yung grupo na tapos ng magmeeting..

“Ralph..Alexis..” tiningnan kami ni Mae.. “..since kayong dalawa ang magiging actress/actor sa music video.. magpractice na kayo ng eye-to-eye contact or basta, be comfortable sa isa’t-isa..”

“What?!” nalilito ako.. “I.. Ralph? Kelan pa ako naging artista?”

“Best, you agreed earlier.. in front of our group members..” Mae looked at me..

“Oo nga.. wala talaga sa sarili..” sabat naman nitong si Ralph..

“Shut up..”  Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay..

“Uh-oh.. sungit mode uli..” nakita ko siyang umiling.. pumunta siya likuran ng room at kumuha ng bunot.. Cleaner pala siya..

“Mae!” bumalik ang tingin ko kay Mae. “..why me?”

“..dahil kayo na ang pinakaOKAY na maging lead sa music video.. bakit?”

“Eh, bakit hindi na lang ikaw ang pumalit sa akin?”

Mas ok na yun.. at least siya, hindi niya kelangan magpretend.. at alam naman niyang hindi ko kayang umarte na in love ako.. Ano kaya yun! Lalo na kung si Ralph ang kapartner ko… Gusto ba niyang maging ‘patayan’ ang theme ng video?

“Alexis, di ka talaga nakikinig. Paul and I will make a cover of the song that we’ll use.. We need to give parts to other members..”

Damn. Damn.

“Then what if..”

“ALEX!” parang nainis na ata yung bestfriend ko sa akin. Hindi naman kasi ako reklamador pagdating sa mga ganitong projects dati. Kung ano ang ibigay sa akin, sige lang.. pero iba ngayon.. IBAAA.

“..all things are already set! Okay na lahat.. And there’s nothing wrong with you and Ralph being the stars. Both of you are good-looking. You also look cute together. Alangang kumuha pa kami ng mga star na pangit, di’ba?” she sighed and continued on packing her things up.

“You don’t understand.. You’re making this hard for me..” I whispered..

“..making this hard for you? What do you mean?” she looked at me, confused..

Bestfriend, gusto mo bang madevelop ang feelings ko para sa taong IKAW naman ang gusto? At di’ba gusto mo din siya? Bat ang gulo mo, girl?

How I wish I can tell that to Mae.

“Nevermind.. Fine, I’ll do it.. pero kapag nagkaproblema wag mong sabihing hindi ako tumanggi.”

———–

Saturday 9am

Sabay kaming pumunta ni Ralph sa bahay ni Mae. Hindi pa rin kami nag-uusap hanggang ngayon. Last time na nag-usap kami ay nung sinungitan ko siya sa classroom..and that was 2 weeks ago. Hindi na din masakit yung paa ko kapag naglalakad.

After an hour, kumpleto na ang grupo namin. Sa garden kami nagstay.

“Okay, uhm. We will have 4 major scenes for the vid. Una, solo ni Alexis..she will be painting Ralph sa video. Pangalawa, solo ni Ralph, he will be playing the guitar. Pangatlo, the night BEFORE and AFTER nilang magkita. Pang-apat, yung mismong araw na nagkita sila. Kung di niyo gets, magegets niyo din yan SOON.” Don, our director, explained to all of us. “Oh, by the way, our song is ‘Enchanted’ by Taylor Swift. Yun nga lang, gagawin nating duet. Si Mae sa babae and si Paul naman sa lalaki. Narecord na pala.. So today will be the start of our shoot. YEYYY.”

“Wow, hanep, Don! Galing mong mag-isip ah!” naghigh five si Don at Ralph.

Ako lang ata ang hindi natutuwa sa grupo namin..

Nagsimula na ang shoot.. At nananadya talaga ang tadhana, ang uunahin naming scene ay yung magkasama kaming dalawa ni Ralph slash FIRST MEETING daw. Hindi ba pwedeng yung solo muna namin? T.T

They let me wear a cute dress.. not too conservative nor revealing. It’s the simple type of dress. Donn wants me to wear a pair of eyeglass. I should look ‘mahiyain’ and ‘mysterious’ daw. My hairstyle didn’t change-one side – tapos ni-plantsa para bagsak na bagsak. Tapos meron din akong dalang plain white canvas. Props.

They let Ralph wear a ‘rakista’ outfit. Cool T-shirt and pants. And since may butas yung left ear niya, Donn let him wear a cross-shaped earring. Hmm. At dahil, rakista siya, his hair was spiked..just like the guys on anime. He also has a guitar as a props. Nakasabit na pala yung gitara sa likuran niya.

(Ready ang mga damit,props.. may naka-assign din kasi dun. Ang seryoso naman ng grupo namin sa project na to.)

Before we go out and shoot inside the mall, we need to practice here at Mae’s house. Para daw hindi kami ma-ilang mamaya. I’m alright being filmed when I’m alone- I don’t even care if it’s close-up or what. What’s bothering me is the scene where I need to look at Ralph’s eyes.

“Okay, both of you are doing great with the solo shots.. Try na natin yung magkakabungguan kayo. Malalaglag ang canvas ni Alexis, sabay niyong pupulutin. Then you tatayo kayo ng sabay. Iaabot mo Ralph yung canvas kay Alex, EYE-TO-EYE contact ha! Then, smile.. ” Donn instructed.

Shet.. kung sino man ang nag-pauso ng ganitong scene, DAMN YOU. >.<

“1,2,3 action!”

It’s really like I’m doing a music video that will be shown nationwide!

Bunggo-laglag-pulot-tayo-abot-’eye-to-eye contact’

Here it is..

I’m looking directly at Ralph’s eyes.. and he’s looking directly at mine..

I noticed.. he has a pair of light brown eyes.. fck. they are so enticing.. parang sinasabi ‘just look at me, babe. Stare at me.’

I looked away.

“CUT!” sigaw ni Donn. “Alexis, you forgot to smile before looking away!”

“Sorry.” this is sht.

Naka tatlong take pa kami pero di ko talaga magawa.

“..ano ba yan, simpleng ngiti lang, di pa magawa. Bakit ba ikaw pa ang napili?” reklamo ni Jane.. Alam kong inis to kasi gusto niyang siya ang maging lead sa video..

“..edi ikaw dito!” I almost shouted. nainis na din ako. Maganda nga, halatang feelingera naman.. epal. “…iyong-iyo na yung role.”

“Oh guys, you heard her.. She quits!” nagmadali namang sinabi ni Jane.

excited much ka ate? Quit na ako kaagad? Hindi ba pwedeng magdrama muna?

Nakatingin ang lahat sa aming dalawa ni Jane. Walang nagsasalita..kahit si Mae, wala ding reaction..GRRR.. Fine, kung walang pipigil sa akin ngayon.. I’d quit! Bakit, maarte ako e?

“If she quits, I quit..” lumapit si Ralph sa akin.. “..mas ok na sa aking maging extra, kung hindi naman si Alexis ang partner ko.”

DUG DUG DUG

Sht.. my heart.. AGAIN..

“What he said is nothing special..” i told myself.. “Don’t be affected.. it’s better if you stay away from him.”

“C’mon, alexis, wag ka nga padala sa babaeng yun.” bulong niya.

Nalilito na ako.. fuck.. bakit ba ang bait niya sa akin! Well, my father is his boss.. Pakitang tao lang alex, pakitang tao lang.. Keep that in mind..

“I won’t quit if..”

Napatingin sa akin lahat.. I saw Ralph smirked. He thinks he’s the reason.. Well, pwede naman diba? Siya na lang ang partner ko! But then, nabaling ang tingin ko kay Mae. No, I can’t.. I can’t. Kasi pag hinayaan kong mangyari to, kapag nagustuhan ko nang tuluyan  si Ralph, baka hindi lang ako ang masaktan.. baka masaktan ko din ang bestfriend ko.

At ni minsan, di ko naisip na gawin yun..

I’m sorry, Ralph, ayokong mapahiya ka. I hate to say this.. but I need to..

“..I won’t quit.. if Paul will be my partner..”

Ralph’s eyes widened, his jaw dropped.. He looked at me.. his eyes asking me ‘Why?’.

“Di kita maintindihan..” Ralph whispered to me..he shook his head.. disappointment and frustration written all over his face. “..bahala ka na.” he sounds mad..

“Fine guys.” he shouted. Nakataas yung dalawang kamay niya. “I QUIT!” he walked out..

I was about to follow Ralph when I met my bestfriend’s eyes.. And I realized, I don’t have the right to follow him because I was the one who pushed him away..

And so I stayed..

—————-

“..ang arte kasi..” parinig ni Jane. “..at pa-importante pa. Kawawa naman si Ralph. Bakit kasi pinagtanggol ka pa niya. See what he had in return. You’re a selfish bitch.” tiningnan ako ng walangya.

Tanggap ko na pa-importante at maarte ako.. Alam ko din sa sarili ko na selfish ako minsan.. pero ang manggaling sa babaeng to na BITCH ako, it’s not okay. NAKAKAINSULTO.. Sa dinami-dami ng pwedeng tumawag sa akin ng bitch, siya pa ang naglakas loob.

Shit lang ah.  Ang sarap sabunutan o kaya lunurin sa bathtub e.

“..if i’m a  selfish bitch, what are you?” lumapit ako sa kanya.. “..hmmm let me think..” I shrugged my shoulders.. “..wala akong maisip e.. because you’re always nothing compared to me.”

She cursed and cursed and cursed.

She called me bitch.. pinatunayan ko lang..

“What the hell is your problem?” I shouted. This girl is pissing me off.

“BOTH OF YOU, stop it.” Mae got between the two of us but Jane and I keep on cursing each other.

“DAMMIT! Will the two of you shut up!” Mae shouted..which is so new to all of us. “..just shut your big mouths and listen to me!”

Natahimik kaming lahat at tumingin kay Mae. Sabi nga nila, matakot ka kapag ang tahimik at mabait ang nagalit kasi hindi mo alam kung ano ang kaya nilang gawin.

SILENCE.. long silence.. No one dared to speak nor move.

Mae closed her eyes..took a deep breath and started to relax her tensed shoulders.

“..good.” she uttered with calmness.

And again, she controlled the scene.. she managed to shut us up.. and she calmed herself without the help of other people.. –for me, traits of a future leader. Iniisip ko nga, pwede sa pulitika tong bestfriend ko.

“Let’s call it a day.” she said. “..Donn, shoot natin ang solo part ni Alexis tomorrow night.. isama na din yung solo part ni Ralph. Meaning, we will shoot the first scene you were telling us earlier. Venue natin.. sa bahay nila Alexis.. “

“..what?” sabay kaming nagsalita ni Jane. Nagkatinginan pa kaming dalawa pero hindi na naming binalak pang mag eskandalo.

“I know you heard it right.. Walang changes na magaganap.”

Half of the group disagreed.

“.. listen guys, we don’t have enough time to change anything. First, Paul and I already recorded the music that will be used. Papayag lang akong maging lead si Paul kung si Ralph ang kakanta sa video. And i know he can sing. That means, magrerecord uli. Paul’s effort will be wasted..so unfair, right?” Mae looked at Paul..

“She’s right, guys.. I wouldn’t be happy if that happens.”

“And.. if you want to use Paul’s voice and insist on making him the lead, that would be unfair to him and Ralph.. Paul got so many parts while Ralph got nothing..”

“Second, we already saw Ralph and Alexis do their job. And I KNOW.. or should I say, we all know that they performed well.. right, Donn?” Donn agreed without hesitation.

“I don’t want to have change of plans.. That is my decision as the group leader. But since I respect all of your opinions, you can disagree with what I want..” she said seriously. “Now, who’s with me?”

Donn was the first one to raise a hand.. then the whole group followed except Jane and I.

“Majority wins..”

———————–

I’m wearing a tank top and shorts for the music video. My hair — messy bun.. The scene is about me trying to draw someone–a guy’s face– but I can’t finish the image.. Ganun daw. ARTE.. haha. Mae brought few of my paintings and works inside my room..Nag-effort pang kunin sa Art room. Dagdag daw sa props.

Kinuhanan muna yung buong kwarto ko-then ako nagdo-drawing sa isang bondpaper-shape ng mukha ng lalaki-erase,erase-crample the paper-tapon sa basurahan-try again-another shape ng mukha-erase-erase-tapon..

Ilang beses ko ding inulit yung ganun, kasi iba-ibang angle yung kinukunan-close-up, meron ding kamay ko lang ang kinukuhanan,tapos nakasideview ako, tapos likuran ko lang.. shet.  Kahit nga ata, pagtapon ko ng crampled paper sa basurahan, kinunan din. Hay.. complicated din palang gumawa ng ganito. Ayun, I didn’t have any problems dealing with this scene because the girl in the video is ME. I mean, I can relate to the situation of the girl so I don’t have to fake the emotions. In short, hindi lang ako umaarte nung time na yun. Natuwa naman si Donn dahil less than an hour tapos na yung scene sa akin.

Akala ko tapos na.. yun pala, may 2nd scene pa. Yun yung part na, ido-drawing ko daw yung mukha ni Ralph. Then they gave me a picture of him-head to chest lang ang nakikita. Probably, this photo was taken yesterday..narecognize ko kasi yung design nung shirt.

“Can you draw him?” Donn asked.

“..while all of you are here?” tiningnan ko yung mga classmates ko na nasa kwarto ko.. They’re 4 including Donn.. The others-Mae, Jane, etc- are with Ralph in the guest room. Dun naman kasi ang ‘kunwaring’ room ni Ralph.

“Of course.. and kukuhanan din yun e.”

“..you should pay me.. Artista na nga ako, magdodrawing pa ako.”

“..blame your bestfriend..” Donn said while fixing something in his laptop. “..it was her idea to make the lead girl a painter.. Kaya nga di ka pwedeng palitan ni Jane..and walang pwedeng pumalit sa’yo.. Although, pwede namang kamay mo lang ang kinukuhanan habang nagdadrawing, mas okay pa din yung nakikita talaga ni sir na nagdo-drawing ka. Sigurado, mas mataas grade natin. Halos lahat pa man din ng nasa group natin grade-conscious.. lalo na ako.”

Pahamak talaga kahit kailan yung si Mae.. TSK. What does she want ba?

Wala na akong nagawa kung hindi pumayag. Kinuha ko yung picture, humiga sa kama. Tiningnan ko nang maigi ang facial features ni Ralph. Pinag-aralan ko..

Ang buhok madali lang kaya bumaba na ang tingin ko sa mga mata niya.. His eyes.. naalala ko yung kahapon..the way he looked at me. It was like..err. EWAN. I couldn’t tell if it was just an act or what.  shocks. Kahit sa picture lang, nakakapanabik ang mga mata niya.. My eyes traveled down..nose naman- pointed nose.. napansin ko na may parang scar–guhit na pahalang–sa nose bridge niya, sa gitna ng eyes. Hmm.. Lips.. He’s smiling in the picture. Kainis.. his smile makes him a lot cuter.. grabe.. Ibinaling ko na lang kaagad sa ibang parte ng mukha niya ang tingin ko.. Then I noticed there’s also a scar on the left side of his left eyebrow.

I wonder saan niya nakuha yung mga yun. HMP.

Paulit-ulit kong tiningnan yung picture.. Then I closed my eyes, checking if I can draw him without the help of any photo..

His hair, his forehead, his eyes,his nose, his lips, his face’s shape.. then back to the eyes.. his eyes..

Then may biglang pumasok sa utak ko..

I saw a young boy (around 11years old?), having the same light brown eyes, looking directly at me. We are inside a van?.. Magkatabi kami at nakatingin sa isa’t-isa. On his left side is a woman around 30′s.

“Who the hell are these people?” I thought.. I looked at my right side and found my mother smiling sweetly at me. Then another scene flashed before me.. I was holding a knotted thread bracelet..I gave it to the young boy beside me..I was looking at his eyes when I heard something.. Mahabang busina.. as in sobrang haba.. And so, tumingin ako sa harap..

May isang van..mabilis ang takbo.. And then I realized.. mababangga kami..

“Alexis!” I opened my eyes.. Basang-basa ako ng pawis.

“Mae.. sorry, nakatulog ako.” Umupo ako sa kama ko..Wala ng tao sa kwarto ko. Good. “..I had a weird dream.. yung aksidente kasama si Mommy.” I looked at my bestfriend.

“Ha? Ilang taon mo ng hindi napapanaginipan yun ah.”

“No. The dream I just had was different..”

“How come?” she sat beside me.

“..because there’s a woman around30′s and a kid.. an 11 year old, I think. I was looking at him..then I gave him a..” sumakit bigla ang ulo ko.. “Is he real? Kasama ba talaga siya nung naaksidente kami ni mommy? Who is he, Mae? Who the hell is he?” hawak ko yung ulo ko habang pinipilit ko ang utak kong alalahanin ang aksidente. SHT.. Ang sakit sa ulo.. pero kelangan kong maalala..

“Best, pagod lang yan..” hinawakan ni Mae ang balikat ko. “Di’ba nga, hindi mo pwedeng pilitin na alalahanin ang lahat.. babalik sa’yo yun ng kusa. Anyways, kain na tayo..”

—-

10pm.. Pinahatid ko kay Mang Rene lahat ng groupmates ko.. HAggard. Buti tapos na.. Next Saturday na uli ang susunod na shoot.

I decided to go to the garden.. Pa-pahangin lang. Lumapit ako sa isa sa mga benches malapit sa tinutuluyan nila Mang Rene.

Naalala ko yung surprise ni Gerald sa akin during our 1st year anniversary. Sa kinatatayuan ko kasi, dito nakalagay ang ‘Happy Anniversary’ dati. Surprisingly, thinking about it didn’t HURT.  I realized, ngayon ko lang uli naisip si Gerald.. and I didn’t feel anything.. really.. wala na ba talaga akong pakialam sa kanya?

Biglang bumuhos ang malakas na ulan. GEEZ!

Kainis..Biglang buhos? Sana umambon muna diba?

Agad-agad akong sumilong sa tinutuluyan nila Mang Rene..  Dito na muna ako magpapatila.. (Parang ang layo ng bahay eh no? haha.) Eh kesa naman mabasa ako ng ulan at isa pa, wala namang tao dito kasi patay yung ilaw. Sinamahan ni Ralph ang tatay niya sa paghatid sa mga classmates namin.

Tapos lumakas yung hangin.. natatalsikan pa din ako.. so I decided to go inside the house.. Luckily, bukas yung pinto. Pumasok ako at kaagad isinara yung pinto para hindi pumasok yung tubig.

Ang dilim.. kinapa-kapa ko yung switch.. hindi ko makapa, where the hell is it?

Kung kelan ko nakapa ang switch,bigla ba namang may humawak sa kamay ko na nakapatong pa din sa switch ng ilaw. May bumulong sa tenga ko. Nakiliti pa ako.

“Anong ginagawa mo dito?” sabay lumiwanag ang buong paligid.

Si Ralph. Sht.

“Anong ginagawa mo dito?” inulit ko yung tinanong niya. I thought kasama siya ni Mang Rene.

“Matutulog na…” he answered..tapos lumayo siya nang kaunti sa akin. “Eh ikaw?”

Bakit nga ba ako nandito?

Damn. Kapag sinabi kong pinili kong dito magpatila ng ulan, baka kung anong isipin ng mokong na to.. WAHH..

“..ah, practice.” i told him. “..practice tayo.. eye-to-eye contact..” nauutal pa ako.. sht.

“..hindi ba pwedeng..bukas na lang?” he asked.. pansin kong bagong ligo siya kasi basa yung buhok niya. Tapos nakasando at boxers.. yes.. boxers lang.. siya..

“Okay..” buti na lang..whew.  ”..aalis na ako.”

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. Napaharap tuloy ako sa kanya.

“Sige na nga, ngayon na lang..” binitiwan niya ako at umupo sa kama. Double deck yung kama dito sa bahay nila. Maliit lang pala talaga to.. studio type. “..umuulan pala sa labas. Wala namang payong dito.”

I didn’t say anything. I’m just standing in front of the door while looking at  him.. Bakit pa kasi ako pumunta ng garden?

“So what now, princess?” he smirked.. “..practice na?” he stood up and started to walk towards me.

“Hoy!” he tapped my head slightly. “Akala ko ba magpapractice? Bakit nakatayo ka lang dyan?”

Sino ba ang hinayupak na nagbulong sa akin na nandito ako para magpractice?!

IKAW! —-> sigaw ng utak ko.. shet.. oo nga.

“Right! Eto na!”

Mukha kaming tanga.. nagpapractice talaga? Mga thrice naming ginawa yun, pero hindi ko talaga kayang ngumiti..

“Hindi ka ba marunong ngumiti?” he asked.

“MARUNONG! kung HINDI ikaw ang KAHARAP KO!” sabay taas ng kilay.

“AH ganun ah..” he said. “Upo ka sa kama.” he instructed.. Aangal pa sana ako kaso, “..just do it!”

So I sat sa lower deck..

“What now?” I asked. He sat beside me.. Nagkatitigan kaming dalawa..

Tapos bigla ba naman akong kiniliti.. sa tagiliran.. Shettttt..

“HAHAHA.. stopppp! AHAHAHA..” napahiga na ako sa kama.. Tangna nitong lalaking to. “STOP IT RALPHHH! HAHAHA!..”

he stopped.. and I was still laughing.. Ang tagal na din kasing walang nakakakiliti sa akin ng ganito..

“I thought you can’t smile when you’re with me.”

I don’t know why.. but I’m smiling..

“Kainis ka!” i was still lying on the bed.. Lumapit siya sa akin.. yumuko siya kasi nga may upper deck pa..

“Why?” he asked.. malumanay ang pagkakasabi..

Without hesitation.. siya naman ang kiniliti ko.. Malakas din pala ang kiliti ng mokong.. KUNG TUMAWA parang ewan lang..

“ALEXIS! HAHA, tama na! HAHAHA, pag ikaw.. ginantihan ko..”

“Ano, ano?” pumaibabaw ako sa kanya.. Weak point niya ang leeg.. inipit niya yung kamay ko gamit ang leeg niya..

“..sisiguraduhin kong, di ka makakatayo. HAHA.. tama naa!” tawa ng tawa ang mokong..

Namumula na siya kaya tinigilan ko na.. baka di na makahinga.. makapatay pa ako ng di-oras..

Tapos narealize ko, ang awkward nung position namin.. Nakapatong kasi ako sa tyan niya.. Kaagad-agad akong umalis..

I realized he would tickle me again so pumorma ako na hahawakan ko yung leeg niya.. Nagulat siya kaya napaluhod siya sa kama.. Nakalimutan niyang nasa lower deck kami.. Nauntog tuloy siya sa bakal.. OUCH! nasaktan din ako para sa kanya..

“ARAYYY!” napadapa siya sa kama habang hawak ang ulo niya..

“..ang kulit kasi!”

Buti na lang may ref dito.. Kumuha ako ng ice cubes sa ref at binalot sa twalya na kinuha ko sa cabinet nila..

“Ayan na..” inabot ko sa kanya.. Nilagay naman niya kaagad sa ulo niya.. I sat beside him. “Ang tanga mo kasi..” I said. I was smiling though..

“Practice na tayo..” he also smiled.. “..eye contact lang..”

He looked at me.. and I looked at him..

“You’re smiling, alexis..” Ralph said without breaking the eye contact..

“I know..” i replied.. “..nakakatawa kasi yung pose mo..nakahawak ka sa ulo mo.” I lied..

I’m smiling because now, i feel so damn happy..

He leaned forward.. I know he’s going to kiss me.

I didn’t move.. HIndi ako umiwas.. I don’t want to..

…

A kiss won’t hurt anyone, right?

…

So God, let me have this kiss tonight.

I’d be happy to let him go..after this kiss..

..after this one damn kiss.

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Mahaba-habang inuman.. ay.. story pala to.. HAHAHA.. biro lang.. kaya pa ba mga kapatid? ts ts.. haha..

~r